OMG I'm so excited right now! I woke up at 7am (Malaysian time) because my friend in Melbourne was inspecting a place at 10am (Australian time). It was all down to this. If this place didn't work out then we promised that we will all go our separate ways (what I mean by that is that we will live separately). I'm so happy that the place turned out much better than we expected and that we actually have a chance in getting it. It's a good location, good level & have good facilities too! I'm just so ecstatic I get to move in w my two friends. I've never gone through the whole roommate experience even though I've been living overseas for 5 years now so I'm excited!!!!!!! Evidently from the number of exclamation marks I'm using. I know it'll be a thrill ride having roommates. Will definitely have our ups and our downs. Just praying it's more ups than downs but I'm sure we will work things out. Gonna set ground rules with them as soon as our application gets accepted :)! Will defo update on the ground rules! I'm going to go back to sleep now. I've been having morbid dreams lately but I'll leave that for another post.
SW.
Saturday, 7 February 2015
Friday, 6 February 2015
Comments
Ever clicked on a video and told yourself not to scroll down to see the comments because it'll just sway your thoughts on the video itself? Well I have. Honestly, comments have really taught me how to become judgmental and negative. People can be really mean and it's just shocking to see how much hatred comes out from these people.
For example, I watch itsjudyslife on a monthly basis and I've seen people torment poor Benji in almost every video. He could've done the sweetest thing any guy could've done for his girlfriend/boyfriend/wife/husband and still get criticized for it. I mean I'm well aware noone is perfect and these people are vlogging everyday and I really mean.. EVERYday. You can't expect them to be in tip top shape every single day. I mean we all have our moody weeks and we aren't perfect human beings but yet these commenters expect Benji and Judy to become this perfect couple that doesn't even exist in the real world. They are already such a great couple and such a loving family but there are still commenters who find the tiniest things to criticize them about. I stopped looking at Youtube comments every since then because it just clouds my judgement and doesn't really give me space to have my own thoughts about it.
But on a brighter note, there are many other comments that are supportive and loving which of course, I adore. Comments have also taught me how to criticize but not to the point of being mean about it. It's always good to find a balance.
SW.
For example, I watch itsjudyslife on a monthly basis and I've seen people torment poor Benji in almost every video. He could've done the sweetest thing any guy could've done for his girlfriend/boyfriend/wife/husband and still get criticized for it. I mean I'm well aware noone is perfect and these people are vlogging everyday and I really mean.. EVERYday. You can't expect them to be in tip top shape every single day. I mean we all have our moody weeks and we aren't perfect human beings but yet these commenters expect Benji and Judy to become this perfect couple that doesn't even exist in the real world. They are already such a great couple and such a loving family but there are still commenters who find the tiniest things to criticize them about. I stopped looking at Youtube comments every since then because it just clouds my judgement and doesn't really give me space to have my own thoughts about it.
But on a brighter note, there are many other comments that are supportive and loving which of course, I adore. Comments have also taught me how to criticize but not to the point of being mean about it. It's always good to find a balance.
SW.
Superwoman & Superman.
Today is a special day because it's my mother's birthday! We never really celebrate my parents' birthday because they always tell us it's not a big deal and as I grow older, I get what they mean but I also learn how much we have to treasure our time with them. I know it's my mother's birthday but I wanted to take this time to talk about both my parents. I love them so much. And as I get to spend more time with them, I ask them questions about their life and what they've done for us. It has made me really appreciate my parents even more than before. My parents never boast about what they've done for us which is very admirable. During my internship, I learned how great my mom is because some of my colleagues actually know her through her reputation. My mom has done so many great things and she never once boasted about it to her children when she could easily have done so. I asked her one night, "Why don't you show off your success?" and she told me she didn't feel like she had to.
As a kid, teenager and now a young adult, I've always liked attention. I'm not naive and ignorant so I know when I've gone overboard and trust me, I have. Sometimes, it's really shameless and embarrassing that I just tell myself to stop and think about what I'm doing. I look up to my parents and not just how much they've done for us but also, their qualities as a human being. I don't want to have this urge to show off or seek attention. It's a pretty common thing in my generation and I can't deny that. With all these social media websites/apps, it's so easy to want to seek attention from strangers or friends. You always find this need to satisfy people just to get more "likes". & don't be fooled, what I'm saying is true. I know people who plan out when to upload their Instagram photos to get more "likes" and at first, I thought it was ridiculous but soon I got sucked into it as well. Now, I don't care when or what I post. I'm not saying that people who do this are wrong because their photos are truly amazing and maybe it is a smart thing to do because more people will get to see your photo during a certain hour and you're just taking advantage of that.
Continuing with my topic, so why superwoman and superman? Because those words really describe my parents. I'm a pretty emotional person and whenever I find out what they've done for us secretly, I always get teary eyed. I don't know how they manage to love us so much but I'm so grateful that they do. I've seen so many of my friends parents getting divorce and leaving their children and I can never imagine being in that position. All the hardships they had to go through for us and all the things they couldn't have because they had to raise us is just a small part of what they had to endure in their life. I will be forever be grateful to them. I'm sure most people feel this way about their parents :). It's hard to express how much I love them because it's unexplainable. I'm just glad I got to live this life with them.
Ahh on a less emotional note, I baked cookies today! Perfecting my chewy chocolate chips & cornflakes cookies! I'm pretty proud of them~
SW.
As a kid, teenager and now a young adult, I've always liked attention. I'm not naive and ignorant so I know when I've gone overboard and trust me, I have. Sometimes, it's really shameless and embarrassing that I just tell myself to stop and think about what I'm doing. I look up to my parents and not just how much they've done for us but also, their qualities as a human being. I don't want to have this urge to show off or seek attention. It's a pretty common thing in my generation and I can't deny that. With all these social media websites/apps, it's so easy to want to seek attention from strangers or friends. You always find this need to satisfy people just to get more "likes". & don't be fooled, what I'm saying is true. I know people who plan out when to upload their Instagram photos to get more "likes" and at first, I thought it was ridiculous but soon I got sucked into it as well. Now, I don't care when or what I post. I'm not saying that people who do this are wrong because their photos are truly amazing and maybe it is a smart thing to do because more people will get to see your photo during a certain hour and you're just taking advantage of that.
Continuing with my topic, so why superwoman and superman? Because those words really describe my parents. I'm a pretty emotional person and whenever I find out what they've done for us secretly, I always get teary eyed. I don't know how they manage to love us so much but I'm so grateful that they do. I've seen so many of my friends parents getting divorce and leaving their children and I can never imagine being in that position. All the hardships they had to go through for us and all the things they couldn't have because they had to raise us is just a small part of what they had to endure in their life. I will be forever be grateful to them. I'm sure most people feel this way about their parents :). It's hard to express how much I love them because it's unexplainable. I'm just glad I got to live this life with them.
Ahh on a less emotional note, I baked cookies today! Perfecting my chewy chocolate chips & cornflakes cookies! I'm pretty proud of them~
SW.
Hello, again?
Wow. It's been a month since my last post. I swear I've been meaning to write but I just never got to it (what's new?). Well I've finally finished my internship. It was such a sweet ride. I'm so grateful I got the opportunity to sit beside these talented people and caught a glimpse of their train of thought.
It's finally the last month of my summer break and I gotta enjoy every inch of it before I go back to Melbourne at the end of the month (back to uni woohoo). This summer break, I challenged myself to bake every weekend and to not eat rice during dinner. So far, it has been going well! I'm even quite surprised I've lasted this long but proud nonetheless! I'm thinking about challenging myself some more (as always! My friend actually pointed out to me that I like to challenge myself. Took it as a compliment, of course ;)). I've been thinking about creating a Youtube channel. I just want to commit myself for a year (at least) and see how it goes from there. The theme of the channel would be me challenging myself. Not on a daily basis but whenever I can. I'm still thinking about it because I'm afraid I lack the dexterity and discipline but I think it'll be pretty fun, eh? :) My best friend is actually starting her own Youtube channel soon and I know she will be amazing in it. She has all the qualities of a star! Super stoked for her! As of now, I won't promote anything because I'm trying to keep this blog on a down low. It's not that hard, I mean who searches for blogs nowadays anyway? People normally click on links when you promote your stuff.
Anyway, I'm going to be blogging more often now! Well, until university starts anyway.
Really random but that's what this blog is about.. these are the songs I've been hooked to recently:
It's finally the last month of my summer break and I gotta enjoy every inch of it before I go back to Melbourne at the end of the month (back to uni woohoo). This summer break, I challenged myself to bake every weekend and to not eat rice during dinner. So far, it has been going well! I'm even quite surprised I've lasted this long but proud nonetheless! I'm thinking about challenging myself some more (as always! My friend actually pointed out to me that I like to challenge myself. Took it as a compliment, of course ;)). I've been thinking about creating a Youtube channel. I just want to commit myself for a year (at least) and see how it goes from there. The theme of the channel would be me challenging myself. Not on a daily basis but whenever I can. I'm still thinking about it because I'm afraid I lack the dexterity and discipline but I think it'll be pretty fun, eh? :) My best friend is actually starting her own Youtube channel soon and I know she will be amazing in it. She has all the qualities of a star! Super stoked for her! As of now, I won't promote anything because I'm trying to keep this blog on a down low. It's not that hard, I mean who searches for blogs nowadays anyway? People normally click on links when you promote your stuff.
Anyway, I'm going to be blogging more often now! Well, until university starts anyway.
Really random but that's what this blog is about.. these are the songs I've been hooked to recently:
- Freak - Steve Aoki, Diplo, & Deorro (ft. Steve Bays)
- Mark Ronson - Uptown Funk (Audio) ft. Bruno Mars
- FUTURE - MOVE THAT DOPE (DJ REEZEY REMIX)
Monday, 5 January 2015
Increase Saturation.
Day 1 of the internship over and I survived! People were super nice but I won't be talking about my internship publicly but just know, all went well :)
Kuala Lumpur was jampacked today (as always) and all I could think about was "Thank God I have a driver." I cannot imagine driving 2 hours straight stuck in a traffic jam let alone let my mother drive me. It really is a true definition of a city hustle and bustle but I've never been to a Metropolitan City before so what do I know?
Nothing much happened today but I just felt the need (how many times have I used those 3 words?) to write. Today, I wanted to post a selfie on Instagram to commemorate the first day of my internship and I did. As I took the photo, posing at the perfect angle and even drawing up the blinds of the car to get a bit more light exposure, a thought came across.. "Do I look like this in real life?" I didn't photoshop my photo nor did I cover any blemishes. I just did the normal increase exposure, increase saturation and maybe increase contrast shebang but I always feel like I'm faking all of it. Whenever I meet people, I wonder if they think, "Whoah she looks so much better in photos!" Am I digging my own grave? I'm well aware that the angles I pose in are not angles I'm positioned at when I'm talking to someone. I remember meeting someone called James when I was younger (met through MSN) and he said I look "better than the pictures." Granted, he might have just said those words just to flatter me but I really took it to heart. And now as I get better at taking photos and filtering photos, I feel like the pictures are so much better and the real me is downgrading. I don't want to mislead people. However, I talked to a friend about it and I know it's all in my head. "You didn't photoshop your face, your features are all there. That's you." Maybe the lady in the photo is me. Maybe I'm not so bad after all. All these thoughts, they may or may not be true but how I feel about it is what matters. I need to continue building confidence in myself and start being "true to myself." Those 3 words are really strong and I am trying to live by it.
My whole life, I've been taught how to love other people but not much on how to love myself. I guess it was a given because we would naturally tend to our needs but I guess I was paying too much attention on loving people that I forgot to build a love for myself. Not to say I don't pamper myself or what not. I do the normal stuff but my foundation isn't strong enough to make me feel "true to myself." This has nothing to do with my upbringing by the way. It's more of a negative light that was shone on me by myself because of all this overthinking. I have been blessed with a great family and great friends. I've never truly been bullied (just the occasional mean comments by boys when I was younger but boys will be boys. I don't hold a grudge.) so I know that all these negative thoughts are created by me and I have no reason to put this upon myself.
That's why on a daily basis, I tell myself to be confident and to be true to myself. It's not a lot but it's a start.
SW.
Kuala Lumpur was jampacked today (as always) and all I could think about was "Thank God I have a driver." I cannot imagine driving 2 hours straight stuck in a traffic jam let alone let my mother drive me. It really is a true definition of a city hustle and bustle but I've never been to a Metropolitan City before so what do I know?
Nothing much happened today but I just felt the need (how many times have I used those 3 words?) to write. Today, I wanted to post a selfie on Instagram to commemorate the first day of my internship and I did. As I took the photo, posing at the perfect angle and even drawing up the blinds of the car to get a bit more light exposure, a thought came across.. "Do I look like this in real life?" I didn't photoshop my photo nor did I cover any blemishes. I just did the normal increase exposure, increase saturation and maybe increase contrast shebang but I always feel like I'm faking all of it. Whenever I meet people, I wonder if they think, "Whoah she looks so much better in photos!" Am I digging my own grave? I'm well aware that the angles I pose in are not angles I'm positioned at when I'm talking to someone. I remember meeting someone called James when I was younger (met through MSN) and he said I look "better than the pictures." Granted, he might have just said those words just to flatter me but I really took it to heart. And now as I get better at taking photos and filtering photos, I feel like the pictures are so much better and the real me is downgrading. I don't want to mislead people. However, I talked to a friend about it and I know it's all in my head. "You didn't photoshop your face, your features are all there. That's you." Maybe the lady in the photo is me. Maybe I'm not so bad after all. All these thoughts, they may or may not be true but how I feel about it is what matters. I need to continue building confidence in myself and start being "true to myself." Those 3 words are really strong and I am trying to live by it.
My whole life, I've been taught how to love other people but not much on how to love myself. I guess it was a given because we would naturally tend to our needs but I guess I was paying too much attention on loving people that I forgot to build a love for myself. Not to say I don't pamper myself or what not. I do the normal stuff but my foundation isn't strong enough to make me feel "true to myself." This has nothing to do with my upbringing by the way. It's more of a negative light that was shone on me by myself because of all this overthinking. I have been blessed with a great family and great friends. I've never truly been bullied (just the occasional mean comments by boys when I was younger but boys will be boys. I don't hold a grudge.) so I know that all these negative thoughts are created by me and I have no reason to put this upon myself.
That's why on a daily basis, I tell myself to be confident and to be true to myself. It's not a lot but it's a start.
SW.
Sunday, 4 January 2015
Decisions decisions.
Morning :)
After watching Gone girl, which was a pretty damn good movie I must say, it was already 4am. I normally have yoga at 7am every sunday so I was thinking of skipping it because 3 hours of sleep is ridiculous. So when it was 650am and my alarm was ringing, I was lying on my bed contemplating whether I should skip the session and these thoughts were in my mind:
a. It's yoga and it'll be a good way to start the day.
b. I'm tired, I probably wouldn't hold up well.
c. I'm trying to create excuses to skip the yoga session when I know I shouldn't.
d. Why do I need to create excuses? Can't I just choose not to go to yoga rather than think about reasons why I CAN'T do it when I know I can do anything if I wanted to.
e. You're going to regret this.
So I chose not to go to yoga in the end and slept in. Tho it was a good sleep, I do regret it. Thinking how good I would be feeling about my body right now if I had went for the session but I didn't. This is one of the bad habits I have. I need to learn to stick with my decisions whether good or bad. I need to learn from them, that goes without saying but I do not need to beat myself up every time I make a bad one and should continue looking forward~
SW.
After watching Gone girl, which was a pretty damn good movie I must say, it was already 4am. I normally have yoga at 7am every sunday so I was thinking of skipping it because 3 hours of sleep is ridiculous. So when it was 650am and my alarm was ringing, I was lying on my bed contemplating whether I should skip the session and these thoughts were in my mind:
a. It's yoga and it'll be a good way to start the day.
b. I'm tired, I probably wouldn't hold up well.
c. I'm trying to create excuses to skip the yoga session when I know I shouldn't.
d. Why do I need to create excuses? Can't I just choose not to go to yoga rather than think about reasons why I CAN'T do it when I know I can do anything if I wanted to.
e. You're going to regret this.
So I chose not to go to yoga in the end and slept in. Tho it was a good sleep, I do regret it. Thinking how good I would be feeling about my body right now if I had went for the session but I didn't. This is one of the bad habits I have. I need to learn to stick with my decisions whether good or bad. I need to learn from them, that goes without saying but I do not need to beat myself up every time I make a bad one and should continue looking forward~
SW.
Internship + Cookies?
Well hello there.
3rd day of this year and I've done absolutely nothing productive. Well, I mean I did start my work out regime and it's going well so far. I'm trying to increase the number of exercises as I go along. I'm obsessed with leg and ass exercises that I tend to neglect my upper body. Mostly my arms. I think part of the reason why I do that is because I can never envision myself with nice toned arms so I don't really have a goal but now, I've changed that mentality and have been doing full body exercises.
My days have been spent with me exercising, eating, sleeping and just lying around in bed. I haven't done anything special but a part of me is just trying to utilise my time before my internship starts. I'm pretty nervous yet excited for my internship. Nervous because of the impression I might make tho that is entirely up to me. I'm a pretty curious person so I'm sure I won't be uninterested but I received a comment at my last internship that I wasn't too interested but that was from one of the bosses. The other boss said otherwise so I was pretty confused by then. Of course the boss that said that I seem like I was uninterested did not observe me throughout the whole internship but the other one did. However, no matter who it is or whether they observe me once or throughout the whole internship, I don't want to EVER leave an impression that I am uninterested because one, I know I am because I am a genuinely curious person who loves to learn. Two, I know these people are taking their time off just to teach me when they could be doing their own things and I'm extremely grateful for that. Three, it's a learning process: I could think I'm showing interest when someone else could think otherwise so it's always good to have feedback. I know to the boss that commented that to me, it might not seem like a big deal to him. I am confident he doesn't even think about it because he has better things to do but even though, I was hurt by that comment, I am glad he made it so I can better myself. A part of me felt frustrated because it seemed like I didn't "perfect" the internship experience (being the perfectionist that I am) but I know it isn't about getting it right the first time, or even the second time but always improving oneself whenever I can. I was nervous writing this out because they always say to never publish about your work on the internet but since this is a past experience, I just wanted to rant a bit.
On a brighter note, I baked cookies yesterday! I've been trying to bake the perfect chewy cookies that Subway makes (Funny since Subway is known for its sandwiches and not its cookies). I came closer to it today! I'm really happy about how it turned out! I'm not someone who loves to follow recipes. I'm more of a "agak" - kinda person. More than often because I don't have all the ingredients. Here are some pictures I took:
I used Martha Stewart's recipe (How can you go wrong with Martha Stewart, right?)! But like I said, I didn't follow the recipe exactly. I added cornflakes to mine to give it that crunch and chewiness too! I don't know if this was a fluke so one day, I'm going to try again but maybe with brown sugar this time!
I'm definitely going to be trying out new recipes since I have an oven at home! Not just sweet treats but savoury ones as well!
Time to watch Gone Girl with the boy :)
Good night!
PS I don't proof-read my posts so I apologise for any grammatical mistakes.
SW.
3rd day of this year and I've done absolutely nothing productive. Well, I mean I did start my work out regime and it's going well so far. I'm trying to increase the number of exercises as I go along. I'm obsessed with leg and ass exercises that I tend to neglect my upper body. Mostly my arms. I think part of the reason why I do that is because I can never envision myself with nice toned arms so I don't really have a goal but now, I've changed that mentality and have been doing full body exercises.
My days have been spent with me exercising, eating, sleeping and just lying around in bed. I haven't done anything special but a part of me is just trying to utilise my time before my internship starts. I'm pretty nervous yet excited for my internship. Nervous because of the impression I might make tho that is entirely up to me. I'm a pretty curious person so I'm sure I won't be uninterested but I received a comment at my last internship that I wasn't too interested but that was from one of the bosses. The other boss said otherwise so I was pretty confused by then. Of course the boss that said that I seem like I was uninterested did not observe me throughout the whole internship but the other one did. However, no matter who it is or whether they observe me once or throughout the whole internship, I don't want to EVER leave an impression that I am uninterested because one, I know I am because I am a genuinely curious person who loves to learn. Two, I know these people are taking their time off just to teach me when they could be doing their own things and I'm extremely grateful for that. Three, it's a learning process: I could think I'm showing interest when someone else could think otherwise so it's always good to have feedback. I know to the boss that commented that to me, it might not seem like a big deal to him. I am confident he doesn't even think about it because he has better things to do but even though, I was hurt by that comment, I am glad he made it so I can better myself. A part of me felt frustrated because it seemed like I didn't "perfect" the internship experience (being the perfectionist that I am) but I know it isn't about getting it right the first time, or even the second time but always improving oneself whenever I can. I was nervous writing this out because they always say to never publish about your work on the internet but since this is a past experience, I just wanted to rant a bit.
On a brighter note, I baked cookies yesterday! I've been trying to bake the perfect chewy cookies that Subway makes (Funny since Subway is known for its sandwiches and not its cookies). I came closer to it today! I'm really happy about how it turned out! I'm not someone who loves to follow recipes. I'm more of a "agak" - kinda person. More than often because I don't have all the ingredients. Here are some pictures I took:
I'm definitely going to be trying out new recipes since I have an oven at home! Not just sweet treats but savoury ones as well!
Time to watch Gone Girl with the boy :)
Good night!
PS I don't proof-read my posts so I apologise for any grammatical mistakes.
SW.
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